Right, so there's this song by a singer called Beth Thornley, who sent me one of those random invites you get on myspace from musicians- which i usually just delete- but I liked her stuff, especially this song called "You're right where." You can hear it, it's on her myspace page if you wanna look her up, but also at www.beththornley.com under the Music link. It feels like the perfect song for me right now, definitely speaks to me about the way I feel right now... it definitely knocked me for a loop. The album's out on April 20th and I will SO be there.
Every day I tend to question more & more what I'm doing here, how I ever thought that I could be happy with my family so far away. At this point it's like picking at a scab, though. I've already decided that I want to go home and it's all set for July, so I just have to bear with it for the next few months. It's also become hard because I know that there are people who want me to stay and whenever anyone makes a comment about it, it kind of breaks my heart. I feel like I'm selling people out/disappointing them, which of course makes me feel worse about everything. I just hope that I'm able to get through this depression, the constant feeling of homesickness, so that the rest of my time here isn't completely me feeling like this. I also have to stop questioning the decision to come up here in the first place. It has been an amazing experience and I can't regret doing it. One season to go...
title quote: Beth Thornley, "You're right where" from MY GLASS EYE
music du jour: Nothing, so far. Probably a little Fiona Apple later, though.
dvd player: THE WORK OF DIRECTOR ANTON CORBIJN
bookbag: Sarah Dunant's IN THE COMPANY OF THE COURTESAN. Which I must finish before I even let myself open up the long-awaited Norma Shearer biography that's on it's way.
celebrity sightings: 0
YTD Sightings-7
what i wish i'd said: "Like, a thousand times smarter than you." -To the guy who came in looking for SAT study guides. When I told him that most people buy this one particular series, he asked, "Yeah but do they look smart or do they look like stupid people?" Then when I handed the book to him, he said, "So this book's the shit, right?" ...sometimes it makes my brain hurt.
